Rebuilding a Spiritual Practice

Around two years ago, my faith construct was shaken after years of deep study and searching.

I’d been a member of a religion for three decades, and truly, it was my life. Needless to say, I was shocked when it all came tumbling down.

Friends, it was hard.

For a while, anything that had to do with this religion gave me a stress response. I tried to come back to it time and time again, looking at it from different angles, but the same thing always happened.

So for two years, I explored so many other things within the realms of religion and spirituality.

And I learned so much.

Even better than that, I also began to heal.

Little by little, I realized that I could gently begin to look at the teachings I’d clung to in my old life, and not be angry or sad. I began to forgive myself for once holding onto beliefs that I now believe are unkind. I truly didn’t know any better, since I was brought up in that system.

Following my intuition, I’ve been able to piece together a new way of looking at things. I’ve finally been able to see some good in my old system of belief, and I’ve integrated pieces back into my spiritual practice. My beliefs look vastly different than they used to, and that’s okay. I feel peace in my heart, and my relationship with God is flourishing. And truly, this is what spirituality and religion is really about.

Before I completely rebuilt my spiritual construct, I wrote several pieces about deconstruction. And while at the time they helped me to process what I was going through (which was excellent!), I now know it is time to move on.

Peace can’t be found within anger, or resentment. I’ve found that peace resides within a place of willing acceptance. It is inside of love and humility. Oh, and surrender.

So now, this is where I hope all of my life and writing will be focused on.

Peace.

Goodness.

Hope.

Love.

Rebuilding my spirituality hasn’t been easy, but it has been so worth it.